it is 2025. we wonder what to say next, and the wind is still blowing.

seven.

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tangling wires into
these bizarre shapes, rugs
with strange colors and
melodies waitingly, taking deep
breaths before the speech where
we finally speak our
minds: "won't everybody
please, please stop this
cruelty? can't we see how
unnecessary it is?" some glass
window creaking under winds,
some oil spilled in a parking
lot. how again the why's and
who's before and after or some
some behind throughingly, a
manual for writers of research
papers about electrical
engineering and game theory,
complex analysis and early
marxist painting; the
walls of this place have
shoulders that are
sagging, somewhere in these
pages an actual answer to a
question that matters. a new pair
of jeans, a holiday
decoration left up for months, a
lightbulb which doesn't fit even
though we could have sworn the
size was right at the store.
color combinations making us
feel sick and wonder why we
care about the dissonance,
why we should prefer one to
the other. we conclude that
we're all just bits of air
moving with the waves of some
song we can't hear: now
banging on the wooddrums, the
thoughts and the doubts, hopes or
imaginations throwing fists at the
organ keyboard, some body of
loud waters, some
electrical structure groaning in
rains particles trapped in
the breezings, the sine
waves, the eyeballs thrown
left and right or up and down
or is that a sign of
happiness, of
peacefulness? who's to tell what's
harmony and what's dissonance?
who's to tell the words of the
song when each moment's just
a few bits of data? hard to
see the picture from a
pixel, hard to find the poem
through a word a letter an inkdot
the arounds and behinds
lost somewhere in the mix,
the breath being exhaled
before we even noticed it was
inside our bodies, each note
rising just a little higher or
just a little more like dirty
wallpaper: we ask each other where
it happened. where the
music got faster. where the
blue became green, where the
light was switched on and the
newer waves began to
interfere with things and distort
the shapes, canceling out
or multiplying or
performing more complicated
operations until the noise is noise
and the signal is noise and
the noise is still noise yet
somehow wider, more sideways
and spinningly and
uppingly and backwardly, more
harsh and out of sync, now neon
colorlines and batteries, strange
gaps in the spiral not
patterns but something about
them which makes us feel the
walls are moving further away
and the room is becoming
smaller, that one moment is
another and the second hand is
somehow different this time
around. we cannot help but go to
sleep again, this time with a
strange smile and already
looking forward to coffee. this
time with socks and a thicker
blanket. this time with the
windows open: and in comes the
cooler air.

four.

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it's hard to speak
sometimes. we are frustrated with
ourselves for our
inconsistencies once at peace and
allowing things to be just the way
they are and want to be,
always taking action and never
taking action,
leftandrighting with the leftandright
once again wishing things
were a different way or that
the coin had landed on the
other face; we can't figure
out who we are, and we aren't
quite sure if that question
leads anywhere hard to find
the energy to say anything,
too many responses waiting
behind each option which never
seem to go anywhere
positive, anywhere that doesn't
hurt anybody or dissipate
into the grass as if nothing
had happened in the first
place and we begin to wonder if
anything actually did or does
happen or if we had somehow just
thought it all up out of some kind
of desperation and
confusion aimed at nothing in
particular, cycles going back and
forth but never quite the same
way, always surprising
somehow and adding to the
confusion and lack of any sense of
place, the feeling that we are
nowhere and the feeling that we
are getting nowhere.

twenty four.

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they happens go from one
to the . and sometimes they
it and sometimes, and go
from and sometimes things
are, and and, and sometimes
it happens that and things
are not okay we things not
and sometimes sometimes to
okay are sometimes things
sometimes they they are and
sometimes it happens from it
happens that we go without
without the other other without
they are go things things are
they are are, and sometimes
it happens go from other
trying. and sometimes
sometimes things things are not
okay we and sometimes it they
the things are okay, and
happens without the even are,
and it happens one the. okay
and sometimes one to the
other without they and are ,
that go sometimes it happens
that we the other without
they are go trying, it
happens that we go the other
without even even trying. even
things even one to to other not,
they are, and sometimes from
one. okay,, and sometimes
are and we go without even
they are, and sometimes it
happens and other without and
sometimes things okay sometimes,
other other go from without
even trying are , they it the
even trying . and and
sometimes it happens that we other
other without not okay,
sometimes and sometimes
sometimes they are we go from one to
the. , sometimes are the
other without even. and
sometimes things are are,, and
okay , and sometimes they are
, and happens without.
and things are, and
sometimes that that, and
sometimes trying. and sometimes
are trying. and sometimes
things are, and and sometimes
one to without things are
okay, they are happens go one
to the other other without
even sometimes things are
sometimes sometimes sometimes
sometimes sometimes to from it
happens that we go are okay, not
things even one the the other
without without not are and and
things sometimes and
sometimes from it happens other
not and sometimes that we go
go from other without
without the other go from
without from other and
sometimes they are, and sometimes
it. and sometimes not they
they that without even
trying. and and other without
even trying and sometimes
and from we go that we go from
one to the other without
from from. the other without
even okay sometimes they are
, one to the other without
. sometimes. and they are
, and that without even
trying . and sometimes things
are sometimes they are go
one the we go from one and
things are not okay, and
sometimes they are

one.

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and just like that, the
page turns for us. the next
series of random numbers fill
the screen and we begin to
imagine dots and we begin to
connect them and agree and
disagree with them, relate to
them and question them and
share them. the page glares.
we glare. everybody is
glaring and nobody is laughing
and then one of us starts
laughing, and another one of us
starts laughing, and we are all
laughing and the paper is
laughing and the inkdots are
laughing: the numbers are
laughing too.

eleven.

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we keep asking
questions like “will this make me
happy?” when instead it might be
more interesting to ask what
it would sound like if the
leaves on every tree were poems
written on little sheets of
paper and everybody in the
world began to read them out
loud all at the same time and
then the wind began to blow
and the poems went flying in
the air all around and
everybody just watched it happen
in complete silence we
can't help but smile a little,
and then a lot. and someone
hugs the stranger to their
left and we all begin to
laugh. we ask ourselves
another question we can't hear
because of all the wind and
poems, and that's just fine we
realize we didn't want to know
the answers anyway when
there are so many confusing
and beautiful things all
around us anyway. we just keep
laughing and grabbing poems out
of the air, sometimes
deciding to read them and
othertimes using them as napkins.
the wind, the wind is
laughing too.

fifteen.

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tree some after options
impossible after options
impossible to options. we first we
as good seems least we
these different responses
responses, different responses
for different responses
different ways of dealing and know
why because one we one of
smiled? who don't know they
thought across a a thought hear
there were they didn't even
hear half half of it because
there were so many even hear
hear half even half of it
because there were so at once, a
different every single a so things
going once car car in behind
every car in once, car a
different in every single car in
this traffic jam , a
different in piano there. emails
just keep arriving just. but
there isn't. emails just
arriving and from these
branching out into, all these
situations branching out
impossible impossible going with
and seems just and that just
we the one we saw, as any any
least as for seems as, for for
for our instincts but left
them. circumstances
calling different ways of. we
are don't know why smiling.
we are smiling and we don't
know why one across who of
people they thought joke half
of it it because going once
, a different life story
every single car in in this
traffic jam struggle if there
was the sky keep arriving
ever real into
possibilities fanning fanning out
into some out possibilities
some options with the we saw
one we seems going as good as
any one we saw as good as any
for

five.

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quietingly, the
softmurmurs not trying to say
anything in particular or
convince anyone of anything,
prefering to let things just exist
the way they are and stay the
same when they need to stay
the same and change when
they need to change, or not
even need to stay the same or
need to change but maybe
instead want to stay the same or
want to change, or rather: it
just happens. it just
happens, and it keeps just
happening. the softmurmers not
even speaking about what's
going on or what's not going on
but instead just
mentioning about whatever is on
their mind at that moment,
letting it out and letting it go,
the sound waves not
disappearing but echoing off a
thousand surfaces and every
blade of grass, split and
muffled and distorted and
echoed until they sound like
dead trees, the sun pushing
the waves around a little
through the screen door, gnats
in the air just sort of
moving around.

six.

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silence and quiet now. a
small voice humming and
laughing in the other room. a
crystal or some melting snow.
behinds toward while again
around where's or why's while
leftandright shrinking silently. a
wooden creak. a scratch. all
centers things happening all
around, things just happening
and just being the way they
are. and we realize that this
is a beautiful thing. that
this is a beautiful thing.

seventeen.

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an old black and white
laser whatever those glass
bowl going where get their
bottle looking right sunlight
or fluorescent water.
how's between colorshades
and or or thismomentingly
longer than its own color onto
nearby surface important some
with printed out and jet
printer , whatever that means,
glass, not the their melodies
, their rubbing
glimmering or fluorescent
flickerings or lithium for water
how's between and something
or something cereal,
casting while light reflects
nearby desk surface, some with
colors and some printed black
and white meaning not going
anywhere in melodies tinkling
bottle looking with . the
lithium different asking like
something or something an ,
expected somehow while the light
reflects its color the nearby
from some so much and drawn
out from an means, whatever
those. marbles going wonder ,
bottle with the sunlight
uncharged this different subject
matter like it were or
something thismomentingly
cereal, in its own color,
papers scattered some drawn
paintings and some printed laser
meaning going anywhere in
seeming to where the or rubbing
the eyes so or uncharged
batteries . lithium looking for
different between something or or
old expected own color onto
the walls the papers from
months so much some with
blindly an old black and white
printer, whatever that in a, not
the birds get their. the
dark so batteries. water
asking between important or
something or thismomentingly
longer

twenty nine.

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suspect nobody is if
they . we scheduling and be
one thing out in place when
in without, just going by
and going straight on to the
next word with it going . and
at how absurd it is we the
two things happening at
time if time nobody is they
were to write things down as
they listened . start (not
about scheduling start
thinking worrying might be for
breakfast in place particular
sense to begin by the bounces
through our just going. we
suspect that

thirty.

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. can't we these every
minute or second a to our ears
which so so much like why we to
begin are able to we laugh. we
wonder what might next,
changed over or if really
changes are you ?” and you ?” and
we are know we. to cry laugh
see why these aimless
minute like is

nineteen.

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the corner of the room
empty except for the little
grooves in the floorboard, we
smile. the moments going and
going in such a beautiful way
that we can't take our eyes
off it, noticing just how
inconsistent things are, how blurry
and arbitrary the
differences seem between things and
people and ideas, how musical a
painting can sound the ink never
seems to dry.

ten.

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we ask ourselves some
question we can't hear, muffled
because our heads are
underwater, this cold sensation
pressing on our foreheads while
we feel our socks becoming
heavy, cottonfibers grabbing
skin and dragging behind our
feet, cold passing between
our toes. maroon painted
walls and a thick sweater,
crinkling plastic bag full of
snacks. we notice it is becoming
later every moment, and that
as soon as we count one
number there is another in
front of that, always room for
another one or zero or eighty
seven or pencilcase
dirtyshoe, these power outlets
rusting over even though we
can't see where the water
could have come from fading in
the carpet telling which
way people walk most
without asking why they walk it
so often when it seems
there are so, so many other
ways to go and that this way
isn't even the easiest or most
efficient or beautiful or
surprising: they are taking the path
because it is the path they take,
and we can't help but
laughalittle at how beautiful that is
not to say that one is better
than another or that anyone
is wrong for going the way
they do or that we think we are
better than going that
particular way to the couch, but
that we know in the end we are
going to go that way too and
that's just fine. it's just as
good an option as any so we
don't see a reason why not it's
beautiful enough and it's
surprising enough and that itself
may be the most beautiful
and surprising thing of all
at the moment.

twenty five.

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every repetition
getting a little more accurate,
a little faster and with
fewer mistakes. the
conversation going on outside
becoming heated while we do our
best to pretend we aren't
listening.

eight.

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we accidentally
imagine ourselves as having for
a head this strangely
shaped box or a bird feeder with
a triangular roof or
something similar and we are
sitting in the front passenger
seat of an old car and someone
we care a lot about asks,
who are you? and we
think for a minute, and then
another. we aren't able to answer
with anything except a held
hand, and we somehow find
ourselves caring more about them
just because they asked.
they can't answer either,
and the grip gets tighter
and they aren't making eye
contact but that's okay because
we aren't looking anyway
and we are both these
strange wooden boxes attached
to bodies, heads without
eyes which still say so much,
eyes without laughinglines
which always find new things
to smile about an itch
behind our ears, the way this
piece of paper falls on the
ground, the sound of an overhead
lamp switching on laughing
about nothing in particular
and everything in
particular, wanting to want
everything and wanting to want
nothing, to feel everything and
to feel nothing, or at
least something the grip
getting tighter and we remember
how okay it is, how
beautiful it is and how funny it is
that poetry and music might
be the same thing after
all, that hiding is okay
sometimes and being naked is okay
too, that sometimes things
lead to other things, and
sometimes they don't, and
sometimes things just happen and
they keep just happening and
they don't stop. they don't
stop and it seems like they
never will, so it starts
making sense to just accept
this and close our eyes and
smile a little but somehow
this feels impossible. we
get frustrated and start to
do things we don't want to
do, blaming other people
for things nobody had
control over in the first place
and jumping to conclusions
and making assumptions
about other people and their
intentions and what they want or
what they are afraid of. we
forget that they are us, that
their grip is getting tighter
and that nothing is okay for
them either. we remember
that their boxy head is
crying and we have been trying
not to notice. we remember
that we are all the same
person born into different
bodies, and that this is a
beautiful thing. this is a
beautiful thing. this is a
beautiful thing.

two.

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because the longer we
stare at the details, the less
we are sure they even
matter.

twelve.

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we never seem to notice
the changes until they've
already happened. or at least
they are well into
happening. we wonder why that is:
the clouds evaporating and
the sun coming out, the air
getting so slightly warmer; a
single row of bricks painted a
different color. who the behinds
through before how's and where
when whenever the
againagain the words repeatingly
as we notice a little
cottonfluff drifting toward us. it
sticks to our ink, and we ask
again where meaning comes
from. a million coins being
thrown every instant, fields
of possibility so
terrifyingly wide staring us in the
eye so intensely we have to
look away and we notice this
little bug just flying around,
landing, and flying around
again. flying, landing, and
flying around again.

nine.

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we are breathing. and we
are still breathing. one
thought and another passing by
in the street while we ask
ourselves if this is going
anywhere if we should instead be
focusing on something else like
the way the smoke is
drifting away from the incense
stick, or the sound our eyelids
make when we blink. is there a
place for rushing anymore?
the softmurmurs again,
reminding us about our breath: and
a little blue bird lands
on the windowsill. it is
singing.

twenty seven.

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our foreheads outside
we breathe and hands hands
now now small dents in the
floorboard caused each from every
on scratch on the face of
someone we the face of someone we
care , behind the desk
happened, the desk , if sort on
their own we their own for a
like we are floating and feel
are floating the incense
incense our in in our be breathe
hands now we floorboard and
and groove along groove and
caused each groove walls
wooden walls every each knot in
the each knot in the desk
happened, if someone it on sort of
happen on somehow. like we are
floating the is it warm open and we
in what caused each from
what caused of paint and
paint every every freckle
paint panels and walls of
paint someone how the desk
happened, , if someone these
things just if these sort sort
of own close our our
outside our in that feel
stinging sensation now we notice
notice small the floorboard
and they and and what the
wooden panels panels and the
wooden panels and caused and
the and walls paint and
scratch on panels and scratch

twenty eight.

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our sitting place comes
walking now comes walking comes
, don't see looking away
it's okay anything , can just
we walk out of doesn't
matter glance at the clock
wonder if it's eight yet, it
isn't it notice behind us, and
that our shadow is in us . us
around into different shapes
we . lead well legible so .
we were smudges make us
somehow misread a word or and
help us think would be
appropriate. we question the for a
moment to the wind and feel the
sun warming anything,
really anything could or
couldn't prepare the sounds
people these people we've
never and conversation,
never met conversation
destination to types of hats these
little motions forth without
leaving without of permanent
mark because even any going
back and forth without
leaving roads and roads of
permanent mark because even
because things collapse and
what always the cloud a in a
cloud of leaves could need
some need or urge to grow to
grow in way that these grid
patterns a that these grid up when
from below . and now comes
walking our , so so they don't
don't us and that sometimes
it's be know really. matter
another thing happens which,
thing happens which doesn't
at the , glance at the if,
and we notice that the us ,
and strange looks when the
wind moves shapes but ink it
to the paper and remains
perfectly legible. that the
smudges might a two and
technique of a the relevancy
moment, we close just wind and
airplanes listen wind and
airplanes and feel this just
anything wonder anything wonder
if anyway to the these
we've , destination as they
explain they explain they
learned about the about so .
events and eventually were
always . we try to figure of
leaves come from , whether
there in such a come up at the
branches from below. and now
comes we don't look up look
maybe they that be ourselves.

twenty two.

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and another not? the we
lean aware are aware our
actions but try try not to fuzzy
against the and just breathe
where , the second we breathe
for a while longer and bird
voices buzzing inside all
these we hear all these
acoustic vibrations buzzing
inside our chests and making
but making. making
combination combination
combination making we lean our
inside the actions but notice
the just by again and and the
sun we this sort buzzing
vibrations and warmer but more okay
. more combination
making one making one? the
vibrations more quiet trying to. we
. sounds. the sun not
outside where these angles for
angles a while and making we
keeps making

twenty three.

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, a some after another
the and falling smiles the
hugs, timer keep pretending
not to notice. circles of we
hear muffled we can't help
moment the piece of whole room
can somehow feel and don't
or not but don't would
happy more on arm and through
music keeps trees around and
we keep instant we able,
what every around staring us
in away, which wood is so
trees turn we wonder in the to a
without bricks clinging glue,
after another the opinions
and falling into same,
keeps ticking and best.
circles of ink going around on
voices from the other can't

sixteen.

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we forget ask forget
funny but smile isn't isn't it
smile coming back on these
colors back smile when the the
sun starts coming of whose
right cue shades colors
colors lines

twenty.

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sticks a everything is
so sound outside
slowmoving how we remember why,
maybe, but for now it, but we
don't we for now we don't .
remember why, don't and it, for
like it of damp sticks, it
does. of outside of damp
sticks from outside notice how
everything pink we remember why,
but don't stay like this ?”
and it while ?” this ?” and
stay like this for ?” for once
the sticks from everything
remember for now we don't. “can ,
but for now while ?” and, for
while like

eighteen.

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systems all around us
and our lives fracturing
breaking apart piece by piece as
we keep trying to glue
things back together with
words and theories and poems
and cathedrals
architectures in the mind and and later
in concrete, we begin to
feel jittery as we realize we
haven't stood up in hours, this
chair and its arms a little too
narrow, pressing against the
sides of our skulls, plurals
and singulars not having so
much significance to us now
when the lights are
flickering so subtly. we pray but
don't know who we are praying
to who we are praying for,
what we want, what we should
want. fading. fading.

twenty six.

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the thoughts
interactions.. spray all ideas and
interactions interactions and while
just other things making and
relationships pushing to and dominoes
and relationships other
the geometries and fall
dominoes direction fall in the
wrong going the wrong
direction. not going seem to to
fall in always in pushing
buttons and each other
relationships pushing the wrong
direction. we the point. and
interactions. concrete, all these
watch and it all just happens
outlines with outlines of
squares shapes trangles,
making themselves themselves
up behind each of shapes
sort of making and
relationships pushing buttons and and
seem wrong going the but
maybe expected or intended,
way. fall in pushing always
the geometries and
relationships pushing buttons and
wrong direction. way
intended that could be the point.
goals sneaking again. ideas
and interactions colors
while these watch with
outlines of of things squares of
making things of things,
themselves up behind each
geometries seem to fall in the the
wrong or intended , be the
expected or that or. goals
sneaking but maybe that intended
, but maybe or intended,
way we the into the the
thoughts again be goals sneaking
into into the and concrete,
all these while we colors
while we watch outlines of
squares happens shapes sort of
other things, trangles into
making themselves other and
relationships fall in the buttons seem
the wrong direction
dominoes which the geometries to
fall direction. not maybe
that could be the point..
goals sneaking into spray
spray all these and ideas
permeating while we watch with a
while we watch just happens
trangles, shapes sort of each
dominoes which always not not
going the way we expected the
but maybe into
interactions again again. the point
that intended, be . spray,.
the into into

three.

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how did we get here? the
questions which keep making their
way inside our mouths as if
we never could learn from
the last time we couldn't
answer and instead only become
more unhappy and began to
throw things at the walls with
some inexpressible anger
screaming and shouting with a red
face and bulging veins,
fists again and again against
the door not even caring
what's on the other side, too
caught up with the idea of the
door being there in the first
place another why and another
if causing the lights to
flicker and the stove to begin to
smell like something is
burning so we all try to remember
what we had done in the
kitchen last but we can't
remember, and even the attempts to
remember make us shout with fewer
words, make us scream with our
fingers and pound harder and
harder on the door while the
wood is splintering here and
there and the doorframe
appears to budge this time or
that time or this time again
and again and again

zero.

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and all at once things
are so quiet, a tiny hiss
from the walls, distant
clanging of a ventilation fan. we
breathe with the sunlight,
passing clouds causing these
little pulses in the sunglow
and somehow we feel it in our
toes even though we can't
quite tell why the wind
chooses the pitches it sings
against the window, why one
harmony should point to
another, why every story has some
sort of climax where
elements and trajectories
culminate into some bigger thing
as if we had been heading
there all along as if there
were some kind of purpose
behind the penscratches or
where this leaf decides to
fall in this rotting pile we
notice a pain in our lower back
from bad posture and some
strange sense of pressure from
the bottom of our right foot
now the ventilation fan
slowing down into a periodic
banging; we notice a coin lying on
the ground but we can't make
out which side it landed on.
do we care? is it good to
care? would it matter if we
knew? we are staring at the
coin and the coin is staring
back.

fourteen.

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stays seems seems to
agains wind. agains the a we or
to while behind and a eyes
again with questions how to
see under a color clock
seems with those usual clunks
with with those clunks and
little fingers and little
little fingers and woodenbits
a counterpoint .
conversation stays stays nobody same
really seems to the to about.
agains the wayingsong a the,
and, a beforemaroon, the
see under how to we are stuck
it seems be working to
usual with those woodenbits
little fingers and we suggest a
we suggest a counterpoint
. and

twenty one.

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we wonder what would
make us happy, what would
make this headache go away
which keeps distracting us
from everything going on the
scratching pens and observations,
a quote out of context we
leave the incense burning
when we go to sleep even
though we know it's a fire
hazard and it puts our lives in
danger and the lives of all the
other people living above and
below us, and all of the people
we know and the people who
care about what happens to us
even though we never asked
them to. we wonder why it
should matter that something
happens to anyone, we wonder why
we care. and everything is
so quiet.

thirteen.

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we wait for a few minutes
and wonder if it would be
okay for us to ask now: "is
this beautiful?" we wonder
if nobody noticed and we
watch the air just sort of move
around through the leaves. we
take another breath with the
sunlight and feel warmer.
throughs and arounds
behindingly the now nowing while
again the time continues and
stops and continues again.
circles of ink we close our eyes.

thirty one.

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call society on
everyone even when or why they are
we and we ourselves don't
quite or why the with about
wooden cabinets and why they
are so a explain a thought
build a chord when it seems the
sky desks. different make
up for think. the. the
illusion we are reminder a grain
of a library where every
book is in a different
language and there are don't
things for have names even a; we
are not sure if the
shuffling feet a a librarian down
is down is we long time in
seen in a long remember even
though
,