it is 2025. we wonder what to say next, and the wind is still blowing.

twenty nine.

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of are any particular
sense writing in place when we
intention to begin with, across
lines and our ear . it and with
it. we we laugh at little
laugh it we absurd about
things like numbers and things
happening, what of, what two sound
someone were to nobody ) and if
they trying to write much we
worrying about scheduling and
books and (not tomorrow or why
we cross one thing of
another

twenty four.

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are not okay, and
sometimes we go from without even
and sometimes things are
okay, happens that even okay
, that it happens one to
the without even trying and
sometimes they go from one. and
sometimes are not okay , and
sometimes they are and happens and
are not okay , and sometimes
sometimes happens to from we
happens and sometimes. the
things are , sometimes
sometimes we go from even okay, and
sometimes it happens that we to
trying things they are, they
are ,, and are from to other
without and sometimes it it
happens to the trying without
from one trying . not ,, they
we trying, it happens that
we go one to the other
without. and sometimes are the
other things are okay they we
go from one to without from
one to the are not

twenty five.

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a little more accurate.
every repetition little more
a little faster and
mistakes. the little getting a
aren't accurate, a
conversation mistakes on outside
becoming heated while to on
outside becoming heated while
conversation outside becoming going
on outside and little
accurate, a little faster and
getting a little more accurate
little, repetition getting a
little little faster and a
fewer mistakes a little
faster a little faster a little
little faster and more
accurate every repetition
getting a little more. little
fewer mistakes conversation
going on conversation faster
a little faster a we while
we heated the on
conversation going becoming heated
while becoming we do our
aren't heated while our best to
becoming our conversation going
and a little every best
outside becoming heated while
we pretend best to pretend
while we best do our best we
aren't getting a little
listening repetition faster and
with fewer mistakes. the
conversation and with accurate and
little faster and little fewer
going on fewer mistakes. the
fewer going becoming with
fewer mistakes. the do we
aren't listening repetition
getting a little listening, a
conversation going on outside do our
best we aren't listening.
every repetition getting a
every a little repetition
little more accurate, a little
faster a a repetition getting
every aren't every more
accurate. every repetition
getting a little repetition to
pretend best outside becoming
heated while to pretend we
aren't listening. getting
best to pretend best to
pretend listening. little
aren't listening we aren't
listening. every repetition
getting a accurate, a little
faster on heated while we do to
pretend we aren't every more a
accurate, a little with accurate
, little more accurate
every repetition to pretend
we repetition getting
every more accurate, with
fewer little, more accurate,
more accurate, a
conversation our best becoming
heated best outside becoming
we do our outside while we
pretend we aren't every
repetition getting we we do to our
outside mistakes more mistakes
and little faster a more a
little repetition faster on
outside conversation going
with fewer mistakes. we do to
pretend we aren't getting a
little more mistakes, a little
faster on outside becoming
heated while we do going
becoming heated while we
conversation outside mistakes while
we do

eleven.

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we keep asking
questions like “will this make me
happy?” when instead it might be
more interesting to ask what
it would sound like if the
leaves on every tree were poems
written on little sheets of
paper and everybody in the
world began to read them out
loud all at the same time and
then the wind began to blow
and the poems went flying in
the air all around and
everybody just watched it happen
in complete silence we
can't help but smile a little,
and then a lot. and someone
hugs the stranger to their
left and we all begin to
laugh. we ask ourselves
another question we can't hear
because of all the wind and
poems, and that's just fine we
realize we didn't want to know
the answers anyway when
there are so many confusing
and beautiful things all
around us anyway. we just keep
laughing and grabbing poems out
of the air, sometimes
deciding to read them and
othertimes using them as napkins.
the wind, the wind is
laughing too.

twenty seven.

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stinging sensation in
our hands in floorboard and
from along panels the face
someone care face knot in behind
the desk if on if these sort
of their somehow like
moment and that the our bodies ,
that the the outside bodies
in our, that it to windows
we breathe feel this
stinging sensation sensation in
now we we notice small dents
in and ask ourselves
ourselves where and ask in notice
small dents ourselves where
they floorboard each and
scrape along the the wooden
panels care care a lot, how a
behind behind the desk these
things of happen on their sort
of happen their. we are the
the

ten.

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we ask ourselves some
question we can't hear, muffled
because our heads are
underwater, this cold sensation
pressing on our foreheads while
we feel our socks becoming
heavy, cottonfibers grabbing
skin and dragging behind our
feet, cold passing between
our toes. maroon painted
walls and a thick sweater,
crinkling plastic bag full of
snacks. we notice it is becoming
later every moment, and that
as soon as we count one
number there is another in
front of that, always room for
another one or zero or eighty
seven or pencilcase
dirtyshoe, these power outlets
rusting over even though we
can't see where the water
could have come from fading in
the carpet telling which
way people walk most
without asking why they walk it
so often when it seems
there are so, so many other
ways to go and that this way
isn't even the easiest or most
efficient or beautiful or
surprising: they are taking the path
because it is the path they take,
and we can't help but
laughalittle at how beautiful that is
not to say that one is better
than another or that anyone
is wrong for going the way
they do or that we think we are
better than going that
particular way to the couch, but
that we know in the end we are
going to go that way too and
that's just fine. it's just as
good an option as any so we
don't see a reason why not it's
beautiful enough and it's
surprising enough and that itself
may be the most beautiful
and surprising thing of all
at the moment.

seventeen.

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marbles in a glass bowl,
not going anywhere in
particular seeming to wonder where
the birds get their
melodies, their strange rhythms
tinkling or rubbing cardboard.
the dark bottle looking
right back, eyes glimmering
so loudly with the
sunlight or fluorescent
flickerings or uncharged
batteries. the lithium looking for
water. how's this different?
asking between colorshades
and subject matter like it
were important or something
or something or something
or anothersong
thismomentingly or an old box of cereal,
casting shadows longer than
expected somehow while the light
reflects in its own color onto the
walls and the nearby desk
surface, papers scattered from
months before piled over each
other, some important some not
so much, some with colors
and blindly drawn
paintings and some printed out
from an old black and white
laser jet printer, whatever
that means, whatever those
meaning.

fourteen.

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see these moving so
slowly be working as be as and
little fingers and little
fingers we suggest
conversation stays the to care about
the wind wind wayingsong a
the eyelids, and
underthere, a beforemaroon, the a
beforemaroon again the eyes again
with questions again with
ideas how to see are stuck
inside it so all moving the to be
and woodenbits fingers and
conversation stays the nobody really
seems to to care or to while
eyelids beforemaroon
beforemaroon again how to see

twenty eight.

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is behind , our wind
moves it we try to ink so well
and remains a word or help us
help otherwise , but
technique better idea of idea of
relevancy for just listen to the
wind and feel legs. what come
from . we wonder what could
about anything wonder if
anything could or could or
couldn't prepare and if it anyway
we listen to pointing
toward their destination
conversation, pointing toward
pointing they explain how about
the place types all these
little motions leaving of even
because and dams and because
even roads and collapse and ,
and things just do they
always patterns in or if maybe
something could really be there

sixteen.

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cue remember these
lines lines whose names we
can't remember remember
lines many can't can't of
these colors whose names we
can't lines we that the many
lines the stick glowing lungs
lungs breathe we we breathe
and we breathe breathe. we!
isn't it funny how isn't it
funny funny when how we it
right on these colors whose
names lines and that somehow
the stick of many. and we
many we remember that

eight.

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we accidentally
imagine ourselves as having for
a head this strangely
shaped box or a bird feeder with
a triangular roof or
something similar and we are
sitting in the front passenger
seat of an old car and someone
we care a lot about asks,
who are you? and we
think for a minute, and then
another. we aren't able to answer
with anything except a held
hand, and we somehow find
ourselves caring more about them
just because they asked.
they can't answer either,
and the grip gets tighter
and they aren't making eye
contact but that's okay because
we aren't looking anyway
and we are both these
strange wooden boxes attached
to bodies, heads without
eyes which still say so much,
eyes without laughinglines
which always find new things
to smile about an itch
behind our ears, the way this
piece of paper falls on the
ground, the sound of an overhead
lamp switching on laughing
about nothing in particular
and everything in
particular, wanting to want
everything and wanting to want
nothing, to feel everything and
to feel nothing, or at
least something the grip
getting tighter and we remember
how okay it is, how
beautiful it is and how funny it is
that poetry and music might
be the same thing after
all, that hiding is okay
sometimes and being naked is okay
too, that sometimes things
lead to other things, and
sometimes they don't, and
sometimes things just happen and
they keep just happening and
they don't stop. they don't
stop and it seems like they
never will, so it starts
making sense to just accept
this and close our eyes and
smile a little but somehow
this feels impossible. we
get frustrated and start to
do things we don't want to
do, blaming other people
for things nobody had
control over in the first place
and jumping to conclusions
and making assumptions
about other people and their
intentions and what they want or
what they are afraid of. we
forget that they are us, that
their grip is getting tighter
and that nothing is okay for
them either. we remember
that their boxy head is
crying and we have been trying
not to notice. we remember
that we are all the same
person born into different
bodies, and that this is a
beautiful thing. this is a
beautiful thing. this is a
beautiful thing.

six.

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silence and quiet now. a
small voice humming and
laughing in the other room. a
crystal or some melting snow.
behinds toward while again
around where's or why's while
leftandright shrinking silently. a
wooden creak. a scratch. all
centers things happening all
around, things just happening
and just being the way they
are. and we realize that this
is a beautiful thing. that
this is a beautiful thing.

nineteen.

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the corner of the room
empty except for the little
grooves in the floorboard, we
smile. the moments going and
going in such a beautiful way
that we can't take our eyes
off it, noticing just how
inconsistent things are, how blurry
and arbitrary the
differences seem between things and
people and ideas, how musical a
painting can sound the ink never
seems to dry.

eighteen.

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systems all around us
and our lives fracturing
breaking apart piece by piece as
we keep trying to glue
things back together with
words and theories and poems
and cathedrals
architectures in the mind and and later
in concrete, we begin to
feel jittery as we realize we
haven't stood up in hours, this
chair and its arms a little too
narrow, pressing against the
sides of our skulls, plurals
and singulars not having so
much significance to us now
when the lights are
flickering so subtly. we pray but
don't know who we are praying
to who we are praying for,
what we want, what we should
want. fading. fading.

twenty six.

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each other which
pushing buttons and dominoes
which always seem to dominoes
which. we, sneaking into the
thoughts again. ideas and and
interactions. concrete and ideas
permeating while we watch with a
smile smile. and trangles
into other each geometries
and relationships pushing
which always seem to fall in
the seem the way we expected
could thoughts again. ideas
all all ideas and
interactions. spray paints and and
interactions all we we. it with a smile
.. it all with happens ,
the the geometries to
direction. way we expected or or
intended way we., but be the
thoughts again be.. ideas into.
ideas ideas and interactions
. spray paints all these
while it all just happens
happens things up behind
geometries and to fall in always in
the wrong direction. we
expected expected could be the.
spray paints and concrete,
ideas all these these colors
and ideas all into into
shapes sort of making
themselves up behind each and
relationships other the geometries
and relationships which in
the the wrong the way fall in
the wrong the could could be
the point. goals sneaking
be the. ideas concrete,
watch with with a these colors
and ideas, all these colors
and ideas permeating while
happens outlines with outlines
it all permeating while
just happens things, making
themselves up pushing in the wrong
going the direction the way we
, but maybe maybe that
intended, goals sneaking into
the thoughts again
interactions thoughts and concrete
interactions. spray paints while we
watch. of squares and
trangles into of other things and
trangles into into other things
of of the pushing to
direction. not we expected or
intended, but maybe that could.
interactions concrete and ideas
watch with a of into other
things, shapes up into other
things,, behind each other and
dominoes and

twenty one.

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we wonder what would
make us happy, what would
make this headache go away
which keeps distracting us
from everything going on the
scratching pens and observations,
a quote out of context we
leave the incense burning
when we go to sleep even
though we know it's a fire
hazard and it puts our lives in
danger and the lives of all the
other people living above and
below us, and all of the people
we know and the people who
care about what happens to us
even though we never asked
them to. we wonder why it
should matter that something
happens to anyone, we wonder why
we care. and everything is
so quiet.

three.

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how did we get here? the
questions which keep making their
way inside our mouths as if
we never could learn from
the last time we couldn't
answer and instead only become
more unhappy and began to
throw things at the walls with
some inexpressible anger
screaming and shouting with a red
face and bulging veins,
fists again and again against
the door not even caring
what's on the other side, too
caught up with the idea of the
door being there in the first
place another why and another
if causing the lights to
flicker and the stove to begin to
smell like something is
burning so we all try to remember
what we had done in the
kitchen last but we can't
remember, and even the attempts to
remember make us shout with fewer
words, make us scream with our
fingers and pound harder and
harder on the door while the
wood is splintering here and
there and the doorframe
appears to budge this time or
that time or this time again
and again and again

thirty one.

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from back on we of
questions they finally which the
situations. we, that just as they
happen remember that we they
just they happen

thirty.

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and. we to laugh, and
laugh, questions these
questions are so in place when to
our to, much more think of
good to read bad handwriting
. laugh what, if anything
we reject we ask ourselves
ask ourselves unexpected
return. to answer don't we
laugh. so aimless a to our
which is so like why the moment
a important like begin
with at the moment or how to.
how we are able and laugh
wonder years or if changes ever
really changes.

twelve.

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we never seem to notice
the changes until they've
already happened. or at least
they are well into
happening. we wonder why that is:
the clouds evaporating and
the sun coming out, the air
getting so slightly warmer; a
single row of bricks painted a
different color. who the behinds
through before how's and where
when whenever the
againagain the words repeatingly
as we notice a little
cottonfluff drifting toward us. it
sticks to our ink, and we ask
again where meaning comes
from. a million coins being
thrown every instant, fields
of possibility so
terrifyingly wide staring us in the
eye so intensely we have to
look away and we notice this
little bug just flying around,
landing, and flying around
again. flying, landing, and
flying around again.

twenty.

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from outside. a
everything maybe, but for now it
stay like this “can for a stay
like this does for sticks
from outside slowmoving
notice maybe we remember pink ,
maybe but. “can it this and,
for once, and once, the. a
everything . everything is maybe.
“can like while ?” and for and
, it does from does for
once , it does. the sticks
from outside so pink
remember everything pink . we .
“can like this for, for once,
. damp sticks from
outside notice outside. damp
sticks how everything.

nine.

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we are breathing. and we
are still breathing. one
thought and another passing by
in the street while we ask
ourselves if this is going
anywhere if we should instead be
focusing on something else like
the way the smoke is
drifting away from the incense
stick, or the sound our eyelids
make when we blink. is there a
place for rushing anymore?
the softmurmurs again,
reminding us about our breath: and
a little blue bird lands
on the windowsill. it is
singing.

fifteen.

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this traffic jam
struggle behind every was the
piano piano. more sky seeming
like time just another
ceiling arriving real these
possibilities some incomprehensible
impossible incomprehensible
after, options after options
impossible weigh. good with
options just saw first and at go
we left looking for our
instincts for at least we don't
where calling and smiling for
. all these where don't.
all these responses of
dealing smiling smiling why why
smiled we know one us smiled
first? these who don't social
group of people they hear half
half of it because many going
on different

one.

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and just like that, the
page turns for us. the next
series of random numbers fill
the screen and we begin to
imagine dots and we begin to
connect them and agree and
disagree with them, relate to
them and question them and
share them. the page glares.
we glare. everybody is
glaring and nobody is laughing
and then one of us starts
laughing, and another one of us
starts laughing, and we are all
laughing and the paper is
laughing and the inkdots are
laughing: the numbers are
laughing too.

five.

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quietingly, the
softmurmurs not trying to say
anything in particular or
convince anyone of anything,
prefering to let things just exist
the way they are and stay the
same when they need to stay
the same and change when
they need to change, or not
even need to stay the same or
need to change but maybe
instead want to stay the same or
want to change, or rather: it
just happens. it just
happens, and it keeps just
happening. the softmurmers not
even speaking about what's
going on or what's not going on
but instead just
mentioning about whatever is on
their mind at that moment,
letting it out and letting it go,
the sound waves not
disappearing but echoing off a
thousand surfaces and every
blade of grass, split and
muffled and distorted and
echoed until they sound like
dead trees, the sun pushing
the waves around a little
through the screen door, gnats
in the air just sort of
moving around.

twenty two.

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longer keeps keep
sniffling from seasonal smile
against acoustic vibrations
buzzing us more okay
combination making one not trying to
hear inside trying to hear
inside the actions to notice .
the sun kind of sound pause
and breathe a while the hand
second hand for a while longer
the and the that making that
sound that keep sniffling
from help but smile sort of
harmony and us inside which.
combination work and another not ?
the vibrations more
another quiet every quiet lean
our ears closer trying to
hear to hear inside we are
aware notice the sun outside
outside making grass and just
breathe breathe just grass. we
pause where again the
thisthat, the second hand by
again and we we . but smile at we
can't help help make the
windchimes windchimes all all
these acoustic

twenty three.

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why squirrels cars. end
it all turn out to be part
without a punchline without a to
some rock glue, opinions and
, screams and fists and
hugs, the we keep to while we
hear muffled voices from the
other room and temperature
changing moment all is landing on
and how the room we our a. we
don't know or but somehow. we
don't caring that would never
more or feel more, more
laughing on is

seven.

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tangling wires into
these bizarre shapes, rugs
with strange colors and
melodies waitingly, taking deep
breaths before the speech where
we finally speak our
minds: "won't everybody
please, please stop this
cruelty? can't we see how
unnecessary it is?" some glass
window creaking under winds,
some oil spilled in a parking
lot. how again the why's and
who's before and after or some
some behind throughingly, a
manual for writers of research
papers about electrical
engineering and game theory,
complex analysis and early
marxist painting; the
walls of this place have
shoulders that are
sagging, somewhere in these
pages an actual answer to a
question that matters. a new pair
of jeans, a holiday
decoration left up for months, a
lightbulb which doesn't fit even
though we could have sworn the
size was right at the store.
color combinations making us
feel sick and wonder why we
care about the dissonance,
why we should prefer one to
the other. we conclude that
we're all just bits of air
moving with the waves of some
song we can't hear: now
banging on the wooddrums, the
thoughts and the doubts, hopes or
imaginations throwing fists at the
organ keyboard, some body of
loud waters, some
electrical structure groaning in
rains particles trapped in
the breezings, the sine
waves, the eyeballs thrown
left and right or up and down
or is that a sign of
happiness, of
peacefulness? who's to tell what's
harmony and what's dissonance?
who's to tell the words of the
song when each moment's just
a few bits of data? hard to
see the picture from a
pixel, hard to find the poem
through a word a letter an inkdot
the arounds and behinds
lost somewhere in the mix,
the breath being exhaled
before we even noticed it was
inside our bodies, each note
rising just a little higher or
just a little more like dirty
wallpaper: we ask each other where
it happened. where the
music got faster. where the
blue became green, where the
light was switched on and the
newer waves began to
interfere with things and distort
the shapes, canceling out
or multiplying or
performing more complicated
operations until the noise is noise
and the signal is noise and
the noise is still noise yet
somehow wider, more sideways
and spinningly and
uppingly and backwardly, more
harsh and out of sync, now neon
colorlines and batteries, strange
gaps in the spiral not
patterns but something about
them which makes us feel the
walls are moving further away
and the room is becoming
smaller, that one moment is
another and the second hand is
somehow different this time
around. we cannot help but go to
sleep again, this time with a
strange smile and already
looking forward to coffee. this
time with socks and a thicker
blanket. this time with the
windows open: and in comes the
cooler air.

two.

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because the longer we
stare at the details, the less
we are sure they even
matter.

four.

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it's hard to speak
sometimes. we are frustrated with
ourselves for our
inconsistencies once at peace and
allowing things to be just the way
they are and want to be,
always taking action and never
taking action,
leftandrighting with the leftandright
once again wishing things
were a different way or that
the coin had landed on the
other face; we can't figure
out who we are, and we aren't
quite sure if that question
leads anywhere hard to find
the energy to say anything,
too many responses waiting
behind each option which never
seem to go anywhere
positive, anywhere that doesn't
hurt anybody or dissipate
into the grass as if nothing
had happened in the first
place and we begin to wonder if
anything actually did or does
happen or if we had somehow just
thought it all up out of some kind
of desperation and
confusion aimed at nothing in
particular, cycles going back and
forth but never quite the same
way, always surprising
somehow and adding to the
confusion and lack of any sense of
place, the feeling that we are
nowhere and the feeling that we
are getting nowhere.

thirteen.

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we wait for a few minutes
and wonder if it would be
okay for us to ask now: "is
this beautiful?" we wonder
if nobody noticed and we
watch the air just sort of move
around through the leaves. we
take another breath with the
sunlight and feel warmer.
throughs and arounds
behindingly the now nowing while
again the time continues and
stops and continues again.
circles of ink we close our eyes.

zero.

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and all at once things
are so quiet, a tiny hiss
from the walls, distant
clanging of a ventilation fan. we
breathe with the sunlight,
passing clouds causing these
little pulses in the sunglow
and somehow we feel it in our
toes even though we can't
quite tell why the wind
chooses the pitches it sings
against the window, why one
harmony should point to
another, why every story has some
sort of climax where
elements and trajectories
culminate into some bigger thing
as if we had been heading
there all along as if there
were some kind of purpose
behind the penscratches or
where this leaf decides to
fall in this rotting pile we
notice a pain in our lower back
from bad posture and some
strange sense of pressure from
the bottom of our right foot
now the ventilation fan
slowing down into a periodic
banging; we notice a coin lying on
the ground but we can't make
out which side it landed on.
do we care? is it good to
care? would it matter if we
knew? we are staring at the
coin and the coin is staring
back.
,